On Motivation

“A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others.”
― Ayn Rand

For the last three days, I was searching for motivation. Something which can push me to write something and then push me further to finish it. Yeah, both are separate from each other. The push to start is not the same as the push to end. It seldom is same.

Have you seen an empty canvas? or an empty page? or a void in your life ?

They all let you imagine anything you want. They lay there looking at you. Waiting for you to put something on them – fill them up with something you want. They want you to act.

They become a beast, a demon for me. Constantly taunting me, looking into my eyes, with sinister smiles. And most people will stop there & run away or let it be or simply destroy the stage. The fear binds you and snatches that precious moment of action from you. So how do I act?

I like to keep my demons along. I like to mingle with them. I like to live around them.

When I am faced by one such demon. I simply say ‘Hello’ to it. If I look at a blank canvas – I would throw a color on it, or make any random stroke on it. If I look at a sheet of paper – I will doodle on it, scribble on it. I will place any silly idea into the void. The main point is – in case of fear – I take silly action, even if it turns out to be a mistake.

And that little silly action – motivates me to move ahead. The huge possibility of better & foolish things fills up my mind-space. That imagined world charged with the creative energy propels me to keep on moving. That is all the motivation one needs to keep on dreaming and keep on taking action.

Whatever one fills in those dreams – will affect the path one chooses, the mobility to get to the dream, the perseverance to face the problems, the tenacity to keep on a single path.
What you imagine will either motivate you or demotivate you. And sometimes will lead you to change paths or stop in your journey.

“Of course motivation is not permanent. But then, neither is bathing; but it is something you should do on a regular basis.”
― Zig Ziglar

And I am in love with it. No, Not with the fear. Fear is dreadful.

I am in love with the ability to change my imagination at will. I can keep evolving my dreams – I can keep changing them. It is amazing. However, the more dependent you are on the external sources for this imagination – the more dependent you are on others for motivation. They will decide it for you my friend.

From the recent meetings with friends, i came to know that generally people have this perception that I am aloof, proud, crazy, lonely, e.t.c. Sorry, if you feel like that. Well, some part of it is true also, and some of it is the ‘detachment’. I want to take control of my world. I am trying to work on it – it gets crazy sometimes. And that leads me to the last part – the part which motivates you to end it all.

The vision of the golden egg at the end of the line. The view of the goal post.
The excitement of getting to the last page. The satisfaction of the last stroke of brush.
The pat on the back or the hug from the loved ones. The achievement of standing on the podium or receiving an award.
The pride of increasing bank balance. The lust of an object.
The love of a person. The attainment of moksha.

To be honest,this part of motivation still eludes me.

At that stage, there is no demon left to taunt me. They are all standing beside me. The quest to growth keeps my imagination rolling and I keep on moving.
Sometimes I imagine that all these demons see their own finish line ;and at the sight of it, we all fall into a chaos of individual race to the finish. And sometimes I imagine that the vision of the golden egg does not mesmerize me. Howsoever it may be, I hope that in my journey when I decide to stop and look back at the path I traveled – I find the finish lines crossed.

“Do not stop thinking of life as an adventure. You have no security unless you can live bravely, excitingly, imaginatively; unless you can choose a challenge instead of competence.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt,

This post is part of the Dungeon Prompts Season 2 : Motivation.

UPDATE: Other contributors for the Motivation Prompt :

Role Model – The Story of an Ordinary Girl

Positive Push – Dream Cloud Diaries

Walking With Reason – MarthaOstout

Motivation – Writing Works in Progress

Motivation – Human in Recovery

What Motivates Me? (Haiku) – Traces of the Soul

Motivation – Cher Shares

Dreams – Writing Works in Progress

The Struggle Between Mind and Matter – The Seeker’s Dungeon

The Meaning of Motivation Changed – Shadows of the Divine

When You Call Me – SplitSpeak

One Square Root of One Percent – My Spirit Journey

Arigato. 🙂

Pocket Diary – 12

I don’t have any thoughts to reflect over today. So, I am putting out few of my additions to the Pocket Diary. Actually, I have many drafts but I am unable to expand over those ideas. It will take time to think over them & put them into words.I will wait for them.

Devdutt Pattnaik “Be careful of ‘stories’ they can easily be used to delude and manipulate, and be passed of as ‘motivation’. There is no truth out there, only stories well told”.

Stories…Stories…& more Stories. That’s all what is being feeded to us now through various media sources.Yeah I take them as stories – Faith put on a story may become your belief. Even principle seems like stories at the start but once beefed up with scientific facts & logic – it changes to a rule. In India, stories are vital part of our daily lives.
And I hope you know about Devdutt Pattnaik. I like his point of view & how he explains the Indian mind-space through mythology. Pick up his work if you like. He is a contemporary, so interpreting his work will be easy.

I.K Gujral “The bureaucracy is the backbone of the govt. & it should be kept happy”.

Everyone will agree that ‘Bureaucracy‘ comprises the backbone of the govt. However, about the ‘keeping happy’ part – instead of govt. supporting them they themselves took the responsibility.Even private players contributed in keeping them happy through the clandestine means. Well, the present condition of country & the bureaucracy is open for all to comment on.

Bertrand Russell “A good world needs knowledge, kindliness & courage; it does not need a regretful hankering after the past or a fettering of the free intelligence by the words uttered long ago by ignorant man”.

Russell is not any ignorant man, but whose quote has survived the wheel of time if not the non-ignorant ones. I don’t believe that any statement based on ignorance stands the beating of time.The ignorant comments are generally the prejudices which the individuals have been carrying all through the generations. They are hard to drop away from the society so they persist. The world never stays good – freedom of intellect comes only to few with genuine thoughts.

“Rosy-eyed nostalgia should be no reason to forget that we are living in arguably the most advanced & civilized age in the history of the human race, in no small part due to the ‘materialistic’ work of thousands of scientists & engineers”.

Thank You all the scientists & engineers of our country, for whatever you have contributed. It did had major impact on our lives.And this statement is also for all the skeptical ones. ‘Criticism’ may be easiest to do but ‘Acknowledgement’ is what you sometime have to do.
Adding to it, Acknowledging only the success & excellence  is not what I am asking. I also ask the scientific community to acknowledge their laxity, their lack of zeal, their acts of plagiarism, their weakness. It’s both ways after all.

This much will be enough for today I think. These quotes helps me launch into the orbit of some focused thought. The old texts of wisdom have eluded me for most of the life & I am rediscovering there gems. And reflecting on these fragments of wisdom provide me the nourishing intellectual juices.Do tell me if they also move your gray-matter.


Pocket Diary – 11

Preparing for an exam has its daunting & exhausting spell on you – even if you think that you are not studying enough. I decided that I will blog with gaps of at max 3 days and I am trying. Yesterday night, I opened the WordPress editor & typed down the basic ideas about the post but wasn’t able to arrange them in a coherent form. So I chose to break the lull by posting somethings from my Pocket Diary.

Plutarch ” The mind is not a vessel that needs filling, but wood that needs igniting “.

A message to all those Indian teachers & parents who forgot how to kindle the minds of the children instead took the way of hoarding it with their tested but stale thoughts. To all who are from my generation – you have the luxury of peace & availability of resources, so don’t spoil your kids head by dumping all the worlds shit there – let them taste the ‘knowledge fruit’ at their own ease & taste.

Durant ” The Present is the past rolled up for action, and the past or the present unrolled for understanding “.

Read it. Read it twice if you want. I know you’ll get it.

Henry Sidwick ” One has to kill a few of one’s natural selves to let the rest grow- a very painful slaughter of innocents “.

Reality won’t let you keep the innocence protected. Embrace it & accept some ego-bloodshed in the process of personal change.

” Is reality  chaos or just too complex ? “

Totally my thought ( You may find something similar in some psychologists’ work). Don’t you sometimes think – one can never know whether it’s chaos or complexity which is restricting the ways to decipher the reality.

” Empowerment comes with the ability to critically reflect on one’s own life & to express discontent with the state of things prior to forging a mechanism to change them “.

I don’t remember from where I got this from, probably newspaper.The ‘forging a mechanism to change them’ is the vital on here – without that the Empowerment is incomplete.

Kipling ” If you can dream – and not make dream your master.
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim.
If you can meet with Triumph & Disaster and treat those two impostors just the same “.

I got to read more of Kipling. Added him to my book list.

” Lack of means has with time metamorphosed into lack of venture into something new “.

In other words(psychology), ‘Learned Helplessness‘ – one of the prime reasons for lack of initiatives in India not only rural but also urban, political, religious & bureaucratic. The lack of means might not be the present reality but I think the similar perception has made the system lethargic & sort of helpless. Fresh oiling is needed which comes from a new age blood… 😉

That would be all for this post. Next post will surely be within 3 days.(Promise to self).

Aarigato 🙂

Quoted & Found

Today is the first day of the last month of 2011.From the next year new activities will be started.So i decided to post what ever i have noted in my pocket diary up till now & complete my To-Do list.I am doing great in completing the promises I made to myself at the start of this year.How about you ? Here is a collection of quotes i found from here & there & wrote in my pocket diary.I have completely filled my 1st pocket diary – going to keep it as a memoir.

I have forgotten the source for some quotes & some quotes may seem lengthy (worth it) – sorry for that.Here goes.

myself :

” Being Calm takes effort,Being frustrated takes energy both leave me exhausted.Music helps me regulate”

Andy Warhol :

“In the future everyone will be world famous for 15min”

Don’t know :

“Don’t be a parrot in Life, Be an Eagle.A parrot speaks but can’t fly high,but an eagle is silent & has the willpower to touch the sky”

Zig Ziglar :

“People often say that motivation doesn’t last.Well, neither does bathing – that’s why we recommend it daily”

Read it in blog zen habits :

“I was thinking one day & I realized that if I just had somebody behind me all the way to motivate me I could make a big difference.Nobody came along like that so I just became that person for myself”

From some TED talk :

“We know what we don’t want, We don’t know what we want.But if you know what you want – you have to say it, you have to tell it”

“If you want to reach a goal, start at the beginning. If you want to change a paradigm start at the end”

From Puncture-2011 movie

“Sometimes the brightest light comes from the darkest places”

John Stuart Mill(on liberty, 1859)

“The peculiar evil of silencing the expression of an opinion is that it is robbing the human race; posterity as well as the existing generation; those who dissent from the opinion, still more than those who hold it. If the opinion is right they are deprived of the opportunity of exchanging error for truth; If wrong, they lose, what is almost as great benefit, the clearer perception & livelier impression of truth, produced by its collision with error”

Alain Badiou  ( Manifesto for philosophy I & II)

“A philosopher is always a critic and it is not his nature to accept an opinion because it is part of the dominant discourse. For Badiou, philosophy is in jeopardy because it is customarily allowed to fossilize in the arid confines of academic disciplines rather than be integrated into everyday life.”

Hope the above quotes helps you in some way – to motivate , to reflect , to open-up and express & to integrate some philosophy into life.Its the last month of an awesome year – enjoy & have fun- celebrate it.Thanks 🙂

The Ladies

Most people say that i am a shy guy, so i am. I rarely interact with girls, i passed my school without having an iota of  conversation with any girl; even in college i didn’t.But, today i want to say thanks & acknowledge the girls which inspired me & motivated me to move further & get out of my box a little by little(even if i didn’t have much interaction with them).For the support provided by my friend circle – their will be another post, this post is to give thanks to the girls. I will refer the girls as ladies because  i think they have this gentle, mild character in them not like the competitive cut throat girls. I see them like a fire burning providing warmth to their circle of friends.I can take into consideration my 5-6years experience only for this ,since i started thinking clearly.Many a time i would tell my friends(whenever topic of girls started) that, you know these girls have something in them which i respect & honor ; its not lust ; its not attraction. I think its because they made me realize some important aspects of life, in which i was not good & would like to improve.

Here goes, its the chronological order.

1. The Lady with Passion.(Priya Kumar) : It was my first day in college and i noticed this girl.She had her charms but there was something in her that made me notice her; observe her. Even if i never had interacted with her(though i came to know that she thinks i am a Charra ) , but one can see the passion she has for her activities from a distance. I was not passionate about anything – just like a robot. I thought, Wow, her level of passion is amazing. I wondered what was her driving factor? what would she do after graduating ? would she go the way of passion ? She presented me the Questions : What am I so passionate about? Why am i not so passionate about anything ? This helped me a lot, i started trying my hands on various subjects & skills which fascinated me. Now, she is running her own Dance Studio – it has further reinforced my faith in passion.

2.The Lady with Potential(Aishwarya Singh Baghel) : She was my classmate in school(never interacted with her in school). In my 3rd year when she was in the same batch at my coaching & when i moved to Saumya Enclave, i took notice of her nature. I don’t know whether she realizes it now or not, but whenever i saw her – i saw potential. She was frank, fearless & full of energy.I thought with qualities like that – she will do great in life.I used to say to myself , gosh.. hope i had frankness like her. The Questions she stirred in me were: Do i also have the same potential but not realizing it(yup i never thought i had)? How can i develop this potential inside me into something ? Why am i not able to interact with strangers like her ? Why i have these many boundaries in my head ? Why can’t i come up into open ? Thanks to her, i am trying to answer these questions.Thanks to her i came out little out of my shell.

3. The Lady of Fun(Aashri Shridhar)  & The Lady with Energy( Indu Raj ) : When i arrived at Bangalore, i had really good conversations & interactions with  Aashri (aka Afreen) & Indu Raj. These two were my college mates(no interaction in college) & they proved all my preconceptions about there college group wrong or should i say broke one more layer of my shell.
Aashri is fun , crazy & she’ll move you from your comfortable corner to the playground.Thanks to her, i challenged my bounded ideas & habits of public life. With Niket , Julka  & Aashri i had so much fun in Bangalore. I went to places where i thought i’ll never enter in  my life. She is a friend i would like to have all my life( a little away from my children though – she has some peculiar plans for them).Thanks to her that i sometimes came out of my comfortable space.(Still more road to cover on that)
I had interactions with Indu raj mostly in office time. Any person who’ll  ever meet her he/she will see all the energy she has. When she talks it’s unstoppable & the energy with which she will speak is just amazing. Here also she broke some of my preconceived notion about girls. When i start some idea/project i hope i do with the energy like hers.I wanted to know what makes her ooze with so much power, i mean i would want to have that energy empowering me in whatever i do.Thanks to both these ladies of Fun & Energy i find some more of my barriers which need to be broken.

To sum up in a line,If you have potential than go for your passion with blazing energy & have fun. I wish that i meet more girls like them in future.Thanks.