Anger

I was squatting upon the branch of a tree, looking for a flock to land on the lake near by. One fleet of stocks landed on the waters to have their feed. Like them I was also waiting for my hunt for the day. I took aim at one of the big ones. Suddenly they all took off into the blue sky. I looked below the tree. A procession of monks were crossing the lakeside, chanting loudly, ” Buddham Sharanam Gachami… Buddham Sharanam Gachami…

I shouted at them, ” What have you done, you silly monks. I have lost my prey because of your chanting. Now, how will I feed my stomach today ?”

One of them came forward and replied, ” Sorry for disturbing my brother. But why so much rage against the poor birds ? What use is of this violence ? Let them live. Let yourself live without such grave burden”

“Hahaha….silly monk. How would I live if I let them live ?  Life feeds on life. And I would like to live. ” I retorted at his silly argument.

“As Buddha says, Life is such. But I request you to leave this violent way. Nature will take care of everyone. You can share our alms for today.”

He offered me a share of his alms – rice and some fruits. I got down from the tree-top and partook the food. I was very hungry and started chomping the fruits then and there.

Looking at me with a serene smile on his face, the monk said ,” Throw away your anger like the remains of that fruit. Your life will be much pleasant journey then.”

Saying that the group started back their chanting and moved on from the lakeside.

I threw away the remains of the fruit, completely clueless about what he meant. One flock of cranes landed in the lake. My stomach was satisfied for now, but not of my wife and child. I pulled the bow’s string, took an aim, made a kill shot. Their bellies will be full today.

***

Yama called me forth and looked at my soul with his cold and dead eyes. He was dictating Chitragupta something, glancing at me in short pauses. I looked behind the big black gate bordered with gold & silver plating. Its splendour was overtaken by its grimness. I looked behind the door – some Yamdoots were filling a pool with black greasy oily liquid. I remembered the childhood stories of ones body fried in oil afterlife – but there was no fire or any utensil.

My curiosity took hold of my soul and I asked Yama directly, ” What are they filling that pool with ? and what is that liquid for ?”

Yama tilted his head back and came back to me, ” It is fat-oil of the animals , they are going to bath you with it.”

Still confused,I sheepishly asked again, ” But why are you bathing me with animal oil ? Is that all one has to go through after death ?”

A glorious laughter resounded the hellish abode, Yama explained, ” That animal oil is from all those creatures you killed in your lifetime. And those arrows are all those arrows that you used to pierce those poor beings. With all your anger you have filled your life with – we will fire the hearth below the pool. Then you will be pierced with those arrows and then put inside the boiling grease. According to Chitraguptas’ calculation it requires that you be fried till three-forth of an eon.”

I was dumbstruck, baffled and shivering at the grim picture Yama just painted for me. I was paralysed from my bony toes to my strands of grey hair.
I recalled that incident near the lake side – the procession of the monks. Now I understood what he meant by throwing away my anger. Why in the heaven did I not take their advice ? Why? ….

….”WHY????” (I screamed inside)

– Arigato

This post is part of the Dungeon Prompt Season 2 : Anger Management. Other contributors list will be posted below after the end of the prompt week.

Update: List of other contributors

Kind of Defeated – MarthaOstout

Valentine’s Day – SplitSpeak

An Animal Caged – TJ Therien

Anger Management: Road Rage – Schizo Incognito

Anger – Contemplating Me

A Conversation About Anger – Stop the Stigma

 A rit of fealous jage – Alienorajt

Anger – Never a Worry

Anger management – It’s a Lonely Place

Anger’s Alibi – Dream Cloud Diaries

Anger, Kyrielle Sonnet – Bastet and Sekhmet’s Library

Thoughts on Anger – Shadows of the Divine

Managing – A Thing of Grace

Memories of My First Rage – Traces of the Soul

Solution, Meditate – Hell on My Heels

To be Feared or Loved – The Seeker’s Dungeon

Anger Management – Writing Works in Progress

An Innocent Monster – Follow Your Shadow

P.S – I wanted to just write a story on it. Lately, I have been working on things and failing at them at the last stage of work. It gets really frustrating and I get angry a lot. It is hard to control anger or should I say throw it away.

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King of Monkeys

  Just like this small picture, the book was short & succinct. It is a self-help or management book.It uses the metaphor of monkeys to present the triumphs & trials to become a Monkey King.The story unfolds with a monkey in career crisis, he gets some advise by an older monkey on leadership.Then just like the Robin Sharma’s Monks book moves – the same happens here also.Slowly the monkey is presented with the Trials one faces & Actions one should take to become a King.Then it presents it with the scrolls of wisdom & finally the monkey meets the present Monkey King; voila another lesson and book ends presenting a Happily Ever After.There also comes a Mind Map poster with the book , which is the summary of the book.

I think they chose the Monkey metaphor because of its relevance for the behavior of people & also the main part was of the monkey experiment( a real psychological experiment done on monkeys).The best moment from the book was the extension of the experiment; i never heard that part of experiment i think it was created for the book only.It showed how a brave monkey changes the culture whose origin everyone has forgotten . The next best thing was the encounter with the monkey king, where he tells that he didn’t expected that he will move ahead after getting all the wisdom.The one who dares to move ahead becomes the King.The scenarios presented as banana tree environment, swamp & mirror were really good metaphors.The messages are direct but well presented by the use of symbolism in a Monkey World.Overall book was a good read but felt heavy on price.(Now its just Rs100(link) – i foolishly bought it in 250 😦 )

Having said all that i didn’t found any-new piece of information or knowledge from it.I think I’ve already read an ample number of this type of books & they propound the same teachings.I have a problem with all this ” being successful as a King ” ideology.Being a King supports an inflated ego &  a King may slip into becoming a tyrant with time.When the people demand equality how becoming a king solves this? Can everyone become a King as being a King represents a hierarchy & not equality ? I am still waiting to read or learn something which present each person as a King & how things works if everyone is a King.